I REALLY had no idea what I was getting into and just how deep this dive would go…
Thank you Eyla 🙏🏽. Pulling all these parts of myself (I hadn’t even acknowledged existed anymore) back up to the surface really ignited that little flame still burning in there and sent me - in so many amazing directions - I had called this in, prayed for it & was served it to its fullest extent. I entered the birthing world ready to pave paths and make change!
The first two births I attended were incredible home births. They went off without a hitch and gave me this feeling of placement I’d never experienced in my life. I was dancing in the clouds. Then there came the 3rd birth. Also moving in the direction of a homebirth, mama was working with an amazing midwife and things were bright… however I do have to mention that, even tho the husband was trying his best to say all the “right” things & appear very supportive, I could clearly sense his doubt & the midwife and I talked later and were in the same boat.. she ended up having an “emergency” c section due to the baby being breech (and countless errors and overlooks from the medical staff among other unseen reasons )…
Â
After the whirlwind of this situation, I found myself in a head space very familiar, and extremely uncomfortable.. all my past traumas from my own child’s “accidental” hospital birth all came pouring back in… and slowly but surely I’ve managed to put myself back into a space where I’m fighting to get back out of. Outside of work and exercise I’ve really isolated myself.
Â
Now right alongside of this, I have been growing into the absolute best version of myself at 45- I love it!
Â
Now, full circle moment- I have been praying and intentionally calling in something that will tie this all together at this point for me. During my workout yesterday and shortly after I was deep in thought about it several times.. then I look at my phone and have an email alert from UB group, talking about the sovereign woman’s group that’s formed and open to join. There it is!! The undeniable “ask and you shall receive” moment that’s been fulfilled!!
Â
So I came on here to share my excitement and gratitude and sending it out there to rub off on all of you! 💛🔥
-Angie C.Â
Thank you Eyla 🙏🏽. Pulling all these parts of myself (I hadn’t even acknowledged existed anymore) back up to the surface really ignited that little flame still burning in there and sent me - in so many amazing directions - I had called this in, prayed for it & was served it to its fullest extent. I entered the birthing world ready to pave paths and make change!
Â
The first two births I attended were incredible home births. They went off without a hitch and gave me this feeling of placement I’d never experienced in my life. I was dancing in the clouds. Then there came the 3rd birth. Also moving in the direction of a homebirth, mama was working with an amazing midwife and things were bright… however I do have to mention that, even tho the husband was trying his best to say all the “right” things & appear very supportive, I could clearly sense his doubt & the midwife and I talked later and were in the same boat.. she ended up having an “emergency” c section due to the baby being breech (and countless errors and overlooks from the medical staff among other unseen reasons )…
Â
After the whirlwind of this situation, I found myself in a head space very familiar, and extremely uncomfortable.. all my past traumas from my own child’s “accidental” hospital birth all came pouring back in… and slowly but surely I’ve managed to put myself back into a space where I’m fighting to get back out of. Outside of work and exercise I’ve really isolated myself.
Â
Now right alongside of this, I have been growing into the absolute best version of myself at 45- I love it!
Â
Now, full circle moment- I have been praying and intentionally calling in something that will tie this all together at this point for me. During my workout yesterday and shortly after I was deep in thought about it several times.. then I look at my phone and have an email alert from UB group, talking about the sovereign woman’s group that’s formed and open to join. There it is!! The undeniable “ask and you shall receive” moment that’s been fulfilled!!
Â
So I came on here to share my excitement and gratitude and sending it out there to rub off on all of you! 💛🔥